five a.m. insomniac

i'm coming to consciousness

but i'm still blind

am i changing for the better?

what would it take me to fall in love?

i'm constantly surrounded by beauty.

will i take the time to enjoy it now that i'm sober?

my sudden disappointment of a sudden discovery.

my promising hopes for passionate, freedom loving roommates

have been shattered

by the reality that i'm living with kids too taken

with experimental drug use.

when it's all they speak of

i want to leave.

i had coffee with my father this morning

he has accepted my soon approaching departure

we both agree that i'm in need of some sleep